I'm sure many have been in this situation, of fully spreading your wings and "growing up" ...

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Phew, I'd been wanting to update here all throughout March but there was simply too much going on at all times ...

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Apparently they found a dead body in a parking lot across from my apartment building. Don't worry, that's not what this blog is going to be about ...

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Recently me and my boyfriend have been sharing about original characters and stories we've done in the past ...

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Did the thing everybody from my doctor to my boyfriend to my dad had been saying I should do and went to a cardiologist ...

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Just got to my first class of the day from work. Was up until 1:30-2 a.m. and was up bright and early at 7:30 a.m. for work ...

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How come the most tech illiterate people are aways the ones attempting to teach you about tech? ...

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Hey everyone! It's been a couple months! Like I predicted in my last blogpost, finals season got me incredibly busy, and only in part because of the actual tests ...

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Hi! Long time no see. Right before Thanksgiving, most of my time was occupied by work and practicing for my university's emo nite, where I played Pete Wentz for the night ...

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Hey y'all! Has taken me a minute to be able to update again, been busy, but I finally got a new laptop, thank god. My old one had already needed it's battery replaced due to swelling ...

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I always end up being worried about the wrong person. Had an argument with a friend last night. Not my best friend ...

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my hands hurt. I feel restless in everything I'm doing lately. Restless but exhausted. The dry, hard skin at the corners of my fingernails bothers me to no end ...

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The other day, I added some stuff to the archive talking about Pete Wentz. I subtly referanced the existance of a... deep problem... in regards to this 44 year-old man ...

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I was watching a video on disturbing lost media, and the case of Armin Meiwes and Bernd-Jurgen Armando Brandes came up [CW: Cannibalism, murder, death, sexual violence, sexual deviancy] ...

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Hello! Y'all might notice I renamed the site from cowboy-bandit to lavender-cowboy, an idea I got from the Queer Music Heritage archive and a song titled, well, "Lavender Cowboy" ...

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I went to a house show last night cause the guy in my class I've been talking to was playing with his band, and while it was fun, he did offer me cocaine so... that somewhat dashed my romantic dreams ...

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Just got back from work, it was a boring day but honestly it was a boring day alone which I needed. My coworkers all have their own unique fun hang-ups that are like nails on the chalkboard of my progress-oriented brain. Just a lack of thinking/planning in advance ...

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I'm not typically a Jungian in the sense that humans have some kind of ancestral memory but sometimes I do get a deep-rooted hate and refusal to value the work of nazis ...

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I'm in my queer history in the south class and I'm feeling a lot less... I guess... sappy and poetic about transgenderism than the book we're reading ...

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I'm in my Crimonology class right now but decided to update here rather than pay attention. This is really my class I feel the most comfortable in ...

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This is the second time I've had to teach myself HTML and even though it's a valuable skill it makes me groan. I also only ever get good enough at it to trial and error shit for a few hours ...

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